When the beautiful leaves of fall begin to flood the ground—my heart twinges—it’ll soon be winter. Of all the season changes this one causes me—the born and raised southern California girl, to have to mentally prepare.
My heart and life are experiencing an even vaster season change. Just the term used to describe it sounds wrong. Empty nest.
Truly, it’s not the fact that the kids grew up that aches my heart—it’s the rending—the separation—the change of season it self.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m over being sad, excited for the next season and I am gladly letting go of last season, ready to move forward—I just didn’t realize the ache would be so deep.
Two weeks ago today we packed up our youngest child and moved him to California, where he will begin fulfilling his God designed destiny. Before we left I went into his room to make sure nothing was forgotten—just the sight of the emptiness brought tears. I said oh God—I’m in trouble—it’s not even 6 AM on the first day of the trip and I’m crying! Ten minutes later with tears in his eyes my husband asks if I’ll be okay—more tears—this only lasted a few hours—thankfully our son was in a different car than us!
The day before the trip I sat at mid-day, amongst the chaos of preparations, in my chair needing my Father to hold me. In His faithfulness and this is the gist of what I want to share with you, He showed me that my heart is securely in His hand and He is massaging it. He knows the ache, He understands the season change and He’s put my heart in his tender care.
How faithful is God that He would accept the gift of our heart and take charge of it? I’m so grateful to be in a relationship with the One who knows and understands the smallest to the largest of heartache. He knew this time would come—this ache—and He knew just what to do.
This was an anticipated season change—every parent knows its coming, at times we even long for it. We prepare our children for adulthood—we teach them to walk, talk, feed themselves, use the potty, get dressed on their own, read and write, take chances, speak out, be who God created them to be—that’s what we do as parents—every step of the way teaching them to be independent of us. By the grace of God we teach them to be excellent, strong, mature, loving, kindhearted, God filled—world changers.
Why then are we so taken off guard when those taught excellence, walk in excellence?
Because we have dared to love.
Dared to take God’s charge of carrying, giving birth to, training and finally releasing—yet again into God’s loving hands.
Letting go—always letting go—such is life.
The night before we said goodbye we were at his new church where he will start an internship, I looked over at my man-child—so handsome and so grown. He was worshiping the Lord—just as I taught him to do—giving God his all. As I wiped my tears the Lord softly said “He also is in my Hand.”
Everyone—everything—every season—always in His faithful hand.
Life—but a vapor is always bursting with season changes—no need to fear, be encouraged in knowing—your heart is being held by the heartbeat of heaven Himself.
Isaiah 43:13 Indeed before the day was, I am He And there is no one who can deliver out of My hand, I work, and who will reverse it?”
Isaiah 41:10 Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
Proverbs 22:6 Train up a child in the way he should go, And when he is old he will not depart from it.
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8 thoughts on “Change of Season”
You’ve been such a devoted mom, such a good mom! You know you’ve done well when they’re ready to go out on their own. You’re ready, too, I know it!
I appreciate your encouragement and yes I am ready, by God’s grace, to plunge into the future!
Reg, so beautiful. Thanks for being such a great example of raising children at the altar of the Lord. Thanks also for this new example of releasing them to fly, and trusting God to take care of it all. Love ya
Thanks Shannon, truly it’s been the hand of God on my life—such an enjoyable journey! Thinking of you, as you live the gospel and defy the bounds of human reason!
I could feel every word!!! So proud of you, I’m already dreading this day 😉 Lets do lunch and celebrate this new season w carbs and coffee!! Love you so much.
Carbs and coffee it is!